Random thoughts
some days are good
some days just slip by and
some days I just can't stop thinking about 2 little babes
I know this is part of the grieving process
and I do know this is part of God's plan.
there are days I am mad at God and do not want to talk to him
but I know our God is a good God
it was very hard to go through my little hospital bag and put everything away
just the thought of twins made my heart skip a beat
I was so excited......
We have a strong faith as a family
each day I hug my kiddos a little more and am so grateful I can stay home with them and love on them
and tell them we need to thank God in all circumstances (this is the hard one..)
each day I squeeze my hubby more and
let him know how much I'm in love with him(and cry on his shoulder)
some things just make me cry
I am a real person with emotions here
it is not easy going through this but we will get through this
thank you all for your prayers, emails and cards
we greatly appreciate them...
I am so very sorry......When we lost our Hannah.....it hurt more than words could say!!! Grief.......is so very hard. Please know you are in my prayers!!!
ReplyDeleteI can see where this could feel like a cruel trick, but I think you have been called to something tremendous! Adoption is about being there if you are needed...going beyond those pro-life bumper stickers and going in to action. Several years ago my brother-in-law had a stroke and is a mute quad. I think of the wedding vows that he and his wife had exchanged a few years before. They had no idea what they were getting into when they spoke those vows that day, but they are living those voes every day. You had no idea what you were getting into when you answered God's Call, but you have brought honor and dignity to God, the deat baby and the baby's mother. Who knows what will be gained from her just knowing you love the baby, too! God has called you to something very, very special. I am so sorry for your loss and your burden! --Elaine
ReplyDeleteI wrote this comment on my phone and could not look back to see it before publishing...i have no idea where that deat came from, but I assure you I had no intention of it being in the insensitive position in the sentence where it is. If you can edit it out that would probsbly be best, but mostly I hope I have not offended anyone (especially you) and the overall meaning is what is clear.
DeleteOK, looking at the keypad now I know it was supposed to say dear baby...praying for all of you
DeleteKeep looking up, friend. You will only find your hope in one place. With love and prayers, Heather
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